Friday, September 29, 2006
Bread II
Lieutenant-Colonel Mhasvi
Someone knocked on our door at about 9:30pm last night to tell us the news. "Col. Mhasvi has just died. We are going." So, we got dressed and went to their house. Within an hour the house was packed. Everyone shows up. The immediacy of everyone's response really marked me. Everyone hears the news, drops whatever they're doing (including going to bed), and shows up to mourn together. When we got to the Mhasvis house, we greeted all of the men outside, and then went inside and one-by-one greeted all of the women. All of the women sit in the house on the ground - lining the walls. All of the furniture is removed from the house (or at least the living room). The men stay outside, but as they arrive at the house, they come in, crouch down, clap their hands together, and pay respect to all of the women. I was touched by this act. It's the women that seem to hold most of the pain and the grief, but the men know it - and they show their respect. There was a lot of singing, and crying, and wailing. One woman was screaming all the way down the street, and then when she got inside the house she just collapsed. After awhile, everyone moved to the backyard, where we had a memorial service. Members of our corps band came and played, we sang, people shared memories, there was a sermon on Job (and how even the righteous have to suffer). We left at about 1:00am, but some people stayed throughout the night.
In the middle of the service, Colonel Mhavsi's wife and children came. They are a family of deep faith and grace and joy. I sense that they are all trying really hard to be strong for everyone else. Sam had his dad's wedding ring on his finger, and talked about how he had never stopped praying for a miracle, but now he just had to accept. He's 23. Please keep this family in your prayers. Pray that they will have strength and comfort and grace.
Thursday, September 28, 2006
Kariba
We saw lots of animals. We drove up really close to an elephant that was on the road and then discovered that there were 6 other elephants surrounding us. It was cool. We also saw an elephant charging at some villagers. I think being charged at by an elephant would be quite terrifying! A 10 minute walk from where we stayed, we could watch and listen to hippos. They are majestic creatures. We saw crocodiles too. Oh, and buffaloes and zebra (but from afar). We also got to go on a boat cruise, and to walk along the Kariba dam wall (which is on the border between Zimbabwe and Zambia. Hope was thrilled because it was her first time out of the country!)
We got some amazing photos (if I do say so myself), so have a look at the photo gallery. I've put some captions on most of them, to help tell the story.
Monday morning I woke up early to watch the sunrise. I was sitting on a rock, enjoying the sounds of the waves lapping along the beach, and reading some Psalms. I read this verse from Psalm 143:8 "Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love..." and then I looked up, and there was the bright pink sun. It was a beautiful moment, and a reminder that God brings light every single day. And then a crocodile swam past right underneath the sun - which was cool. God is good.
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
Bread
Friday, September 22, 2006
The Week's WrapUp
Bad news: Our friend Chris was killed in gang violence.
Cool news: Our friend Elizabeth Shepherd was on the cover of NOW magazine in Toronto. I feel so proud of her. My brother Joel blogged about it, if you want to check it out.
Interesting news: All week I've been at a Training of Trainers that our department organized. I've been so impressed with the delegates, who have come from all around the country. They've worked hard and shown commitment and vision. Some of them gave presentations yesterday. They were each asked to present on something that's a training need in their area. One guy got up and said, "My topic is the importance of men and young men shaving under the arms." I thought he was joking, and laughed, but he wasn't. It was explained to me that if men and women shave off hair everywhere, it will help them to be more clean. John says he's not up for it. I guess you can't adopt EVERYTHING in a new culture.
Thursday, September 21, 2006
Parents
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Forgiveness
"Forgiveness is a subject that is close to my heart. At one time I killed 5 people in one family. It was hard, but I knew that I had to go ask for forgiveness. So, I went to the family home, and was taken to the 5 graves. I asked the surviving kids for forgiveness, but they refused. I asked them if I could bring them anything or do anything for them. But they said that all they wanted was to see their parents again. It is very hard not to be forgiven." (I found out later that this happened in the context of the war, and that this man has been mentally tortured ever since this experience).
"I think it's hard to forgive when your husband takes on a second wife. I used to have a great life, and was well respected. Then my husband took on a new wife. Now, I live in a separate house with my children. I cannot forgive that second wife. She took everything from me. I still say "The Lord's prayer" but I can't say the part about forgiving others, because I won't forgive her."
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Old Man John
Good news: We've had hot water three mornings in a row and our phone is working again. Not so good news: We still experience power cuts and our ceiling seems to be caving in. There's a big crack down the middle and every morning we pick up pieces of plaster. I should probably check into that.
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After four months of laziness, I've finally got into a consistent running routine. In Canada I used to run after work, but it gets dark too early here without street lights, there's crazy dogs roaming the streets and it's getting hotter now that winter's over. So, I get up at 5:15 every morning to run. It took me a long time to adjust from being a night owl to an early riser, but now I wake up quite easily. Sadly, once 9 pm hits, I start falling asleep like an old man (no offense to my father-in-law).
I'm running six days a week (when scheduling permits) with a longer run on Saturdays. It's taking a while to get back into shape, but I'm feeling better each day in spite of a sprained ankle. I've decided to run the Comrades Marathon that takes place in South Africa on June 17. It's an 89 km race, but I have nine months to train for it. I'm joining a running club next Friday so that I can train and qualify for the event. It will be nice to meet with people from outside of Salvation Army world. We're both suffocating a bit from the whole Salvation Army ghetto experience.
Every morning I run by a protected woodlands about 4 km from our home. I usually see zebra and impala and sometimes even wildebeest and giraffe. How cool is that? Much more exciting than squirrels.
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Now that it's hotter, the lizards are roaming all over the place. I enjoy lizards and there's quite a variety living all around (and in) our home. I'm hoping not to see any snakes, though, as they are very poisonous here. The over-friendly dog living next door has left with his family, so no more scratches on our skin or ripped clothing. But he also kept the nasty neighborhood dogs away, and they have started roaming near our property again.
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I was watching Star Wars: Revenge of the Sith on my laptop yesterday with one of the kids from the neighborhood. Whenever the scene shifted to a new planet, he asked if that was Canada. Close, but not quite. But I was forced to admit that I was a Jedi.
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We held a newborn baby this week. She was small and delicate and beautiful. She was born premature, and her mom has AIDS. When Rochelle joked that she wanted to take the baby home with her, a family member said that she may just have to. Very sad. It was tough seeing how weak her mother was, especially since we spent the night before at another home where a young woman had just died from AIDS. So much death and suffering.
Sunday, September 17, 2006
Cell Phone Culture
Friday night, I learned that my friend's sister was not feeling well. The sister had been staying with them, and was quite sick, so I decided to go pay them a visit. I discovered upon arrival that she had just died. I was told to go into the room where the sister was lying on the bed. I know it's wrong, but I only stayed about 2 minutes in the room. I was feeling a bit faint. It's like you could feel death in the air. My friend was obviously really upset, and it was hard to see her anguish. Thankfully, she had tonnes of visitors. The whole community comes out to support one another. Again, cell phones were a feature. People's cell phones were going off in the room of the deceased. One thing I did find quite significant was that in the family's living room, many people were coming and laying their cell phones on the table - so that they could be used to let various relatives and friends know the news. We all just kind of sat and offered our presence to the family as we waited for the police to come and collect the body. It felt weird to me to have "Auld Lang Syne" or a samba beat coming loudly from a cell phone in the middle of our prayers and songs for someone who had just passed away. Cell phone culture is just different here. Please keep the Jamu family in your prayers/thoughts.
Friday, September 15, 2006
Deep Well of Love
Sometimes my love feels like weakness. I feel silly for crying, because when someone is hungry or grieving, what good do my tears do? But my tears come from a deep well of love that God continually puts in my heart for others. My love causes me great pain, because I feel that I always want to do more. When I visit someone who has had both legs amputated, or is on their deathbed, or who doesn't know how to pay for their hospital bills, or who is grieving their son, my prayer or my song or my few dollars or my tears seem so insufficient. But I wouldn't trade the pain of loving for anything, because it accompanies great joy - in sharing in the life and suffering and joy of others.
There is so much death and pain, but there is also hope. Last night I got to hold a 9 day old baby. She was adorable, and it did my heart good to literally hold new life. I have a persistent, unrelenting belief that there is always hope. God is good.
Thursday, September 14, 2006
News
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
Amazing Grace
I went up to the Finance Department, and a friend was joking about how she was feeling down today, and so thought about coming to my office to have me sing to her. I told her she was welcome to come anytime. She just popped in, and chose the song, "Amazing Grace." I sang it for her, and she burst out crying, saying "You have no idea how much that meant to me." That's grace - it's unexpected and undeserved, and it means SO much. I pray grace on that friend. I pray grace on my friend Grace back home (who I've been, ironically, really missing today). I pray grace on the many women in Zimbabwe and elsewhere who have lost children and are grieving. And I pray grace for the many people who have been told that they are under a curse, or that they're being used as instruments of the devil or evil spirits. I love grace, and I love that it can free people from judgment and condemnation. Amazing grace on you today.
Dusty
Growing up, the only pets we had were goldfish, and with their short lifespan, the constant funerals became a bit traumatic! Someone sent me an e-mail the other day asking if we have pets here in Zim. Well, not technically. We do have a hamster cage, but we're waiting for our friend's hamster to have babies. Our neighbours, however, have a dog named Dusty. Dusty seems to think he is our dog. He likes to sleep in front of our door, and to be truthful, Dusty loves us. I don't think I've ever had an animal love me so much, actually. Our own bunnies in Canada couldn't have cared less about us (even though we used our whole verandah as "Bunnyland" and tried to treat them so well!) As soon as Dusty sees us he runs and jumps and his tail wags like crazy. I have so many scratches all over my arms. The one on my hand from this morning is currently bleeding. I'm not huge on animals (always having been more of a people-person), but I feel badly for Dusty. I think he's quite attention-deprived. Animal rights aren't a huge priority, and dogs are for scaring people - not for cuddling as pets. So, I let Dusty jump on me - as long as I'm not in uniform. Dusty's moving tomorrow; with the rest of his real family to Bindura - a rural area where they won't have running water/electricity/phones, etc. We'll be back to being pet-less, and the house next to us will be empty.
P.S. Our garden is proving so useful. We ate fresh carrots last night, and they were delicious. We also took some lavendar and added it to our bath - how relaxing!
Monday, September 11, 2006
Tatenda
My parents and brothers (and other family and friends) recently spent a week at Territorial Music School at Jackson's Point on Lake Simcoe. They met a girl named Tatenda (which means "we thank you," by the way. I'm re-starting Shona classes tonight!). Tatenda is studying in Lindsay, but is from Harare. They loved her (of course), and felt that "Zimbabwe connection" with us. Tatenda and I have since been e-mailing each other, and yesterday I met her dad at Congress. How cool is that? Another small world story. Her dad rocks at hosho and is a good dancer too (my kind of guy). As we were saying good-bye yesterday, he gave us some treat money for ice cream. Now THAT'S a dad who misses his daughter! We were truly blessed by his kindness. Tatenda - I'm looking forward to meeting you when you're home for Christmas!
P.S. Last night I was at a friend's house, and she was watching "The Bachelor" and asking me questions about dating practices in my culture. Oh dear. I just had to explain that my culture can be very, very strange.
Sunday, September 10, 2006
Weekend at Congress
People LOVE The Salvation Army here, and they love their uniforms. Even when people are told they can wear whatever they want, they choose uniforms. And people will save all of the money they can just to get proper uniforms. It's actually remarkable. One lady had borrowed a hat to wear for the weekend, and it was stolen. She knows that it was stolen rather than lost, because the thief had put another hat (cloth version) in its place. So, announcements were made, but the hat wasn't returned. So, this morning they took a collection. Over $45,000 was raised - enough for the girl to buy a replacement hat for the friend she borrowed it from, plus her own hat, plus some extra groceries. She wept in front of the crowd, and I was really moved too. That's grace. I was just really touched that the whole community came together to look after this one girl. It was beautiful.
Our power's back at home (hallelujah!) but they say our phones (and thus internet) will be out for at least a month. We had become spoiled by having internet at home. Oh well. We can still submit to our blog, even if we can't see it, so don't worry - you will be kept up-to-date on our adventures.
Friday, September 08, 2006
BBQ on the McAlisters!
I am truly amazed and inspired by Zimbabweans - women especially. No matter what the circumstance, they make a way. Last night I was talking with a neighbour as she was cooking over her firewood in the backyard. She had a pot in front of her with the lid overturned and a bunch of hot coals in it. I asked her what she was doing, and she explained that she was baking bread. She had created a little oven, with coals underneath the pot, and then coals on top of it. I was so impressed! Our power's been off since Tuesday. Last night we had to clear out our fridge and freezer. We were giving out chicken and beef and bread and cheese to our neighbours, so that they could cook it over their firewood before it went bad. John was calculating the thousands of dollars we lost, but hey - there was a massive BBQ on the McAlisters! Inflation causes prices to go up every week, so when we get paid, we try to buy in bulk and then freeze things. This is a clever strategy, except when there is no power for your freezer. I'm gaining a much better appreciation of why there isn't a strong "plan ahead" mentality here. It's difficult to plan ahead when the future is uncertain! I did, however, see some other people planning ahead this morning. The gas station near our house miraculously has gas (or at least is rumoured to have it), so there is a long line of cars who have been stationed up the street all night hoping to fill up. It's a whole new world!
Thursday, September 07, 2006
Hell
We had an interesting discussion at youth group on the topic "Hell: does it really exist or not?" Almost everyone agreed emphatically that Hell exists. Some people were even offended that the question was being asked. When one guy suggested that it might not exist, some people walked out. Someone said, "if Hell doesn't exist, then where do all of the disturbed souls who wander the earth to torment us because they're not at peace come from?" Someone at the meeting said, "everyone knows we are fighting to stay out of Hell every day of our lives." That's a lot of pressure and fear in every day life! There is such a STRONG culture of fear of evil spirits here. A lot of people even keep the lights on while they sleep. So much is blamed on evil spirits - from brake failures to accidents to mental illness to poverty to anything bad. I'm wondering if it's why people love to be in church all of the time - because it's safe. There was a prayer at the end where someone prayed against the Devil and evil spirits. He said a few times, "we know that right outside of these walls there are spirits waiting to attack us and destroy us, but we are safe in this house of prayer." It's become quite unfashionable to talk of Hell in the west. Street corner preachers who stand with their megaphones telling people to "turn or burn" are mostly mocked. But here, fear of Hell seems to just be part of people's every day reality. Personally (and I said this), I find it hard to understand how so many Christians feel so comfortable talking about others going to Hell. I mean, the second most important command in our Bible is to love our neighbours as ourselves. If we love every other person as much as ourself, how can we not weep uncontrollably at the mere thought that another person might be consigned to eternal punishment? A few people said that if we didn't believe in Hell, there would be no reason to become a Christian or to come to church. I found this quite sad. In my view, we shouldn't come to God for negative reasons (because we're afraid of Him, or we're afraid of the consequences of NOT following God). We should come to Him because He's good and loving and faithful and just and forgiving and compassionate. And because life that includes a relationship with God is a good thing. Even if I died tomorrow and found out there was neither Heaven nor Hell, I wouldn't have traded being a follower of Jesus. It makes my life good and complete. My belief in God gives me hope, and gives me a full heart of love for others. What do you think?
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Thank God for Buckets
Last night our power went off. This, of course, is a usual occurrence, except that they still have power on the other side of the street, so that means that it's not load sharing; it's a problem. Usually we're only out of electricity for a few hours, but this one could be longer. I was laughing last night, thinking about how we used to light candles to create a romantic or prayerful mood. Now we light them so we can see our way to the washroom! Lighting candles out of choice seems so different from lighting candles out of necessity. It's a shame really, about the power. We haven't had hot water since last Friday, and they fixed it yesterday - just in time for the power to go off. We were saying this morning that we used to long for hot showers. Now we're just longing for a hot bath. John says if we start longing for our bucket, it may be time to go home! John's always enjoyed camping, but it feels strange to rough it without a lake, and in your own house! It's so much effort to have to boil water (when you have electricity), pour it in the bucket and then bathe from the bucket. But I've discovered a joy. When there's a little extra hot water at the bottom of your bucket, you can mix it with some cold and then dump it on yourself. It's almost like taking a shower. Almost. Anyway, I guess someone will have to call ZESA (the electricity suppliers) about coming to fix our electricity. Except that all of our phones are down. Oh, and if we do get through, they'll say that they can't come because there's no fuel. So, someone will have to drive there and pick them up. We've heard that it happens when you call the police or ambulance too - they say they'll come assist as long as you come pick them up in your own vehicle. Oh - good news though - the government has just announced new strategies to boost tourism. Anyone up for a visit?
Monday, September 04, 2006
Day of Tears
Friday night I attended two screenings of movies at the Zimbabwe International Film Festival. One was out of northern Uganda and called "Lost Children." It told the story of children who had escaped from the Lord's Resistance Army. I was so angered by the stories that the children told of being forced to commit atrocities - like having to kill a mother in front of her children, or having to cut up another child into tiny little pieces, or capturing another child who tried to run away, cutting off her head, and then throwing it up and down, up and down in the air like a ball. It's horrible. Those kinds of things don't leave your mind easily. How can people leave emotional scars like that on children? The other movie was called "Faith's Corner." It was out of South Africa, and told the story of a woman who lived on the streets with her two boys; trying to make a living for them. I cried at the point where she thought she had lost hope.
There's a lot of sadness in the world.
But there is joy, too. Because there is always hope. I believe that with all my heart.
(And I had some good tears of joy today too, because I got to talk to both my parents and both my brothers, and that was nice). Mwari makanaka.
Sunday, September 03, 2006
You Can Lick the Bowl at Birthday Parties
Today is Mac's birthday, and he turned 69. After church (3 services today - and I preached at 2 of them!) my friend Debra and I went the shops, but they didn't have cake nor birthday candles ("what are birthday candles?") and so we bought some ice cream. I also lit one of the big candles we use when the power's out, and made a card with an enclosure. We sang "Happy Birthday" and Mac was thrilled! Alice only told me about his birthday yesterday, but she said that all day they have been waiting for me to come. They knew that I wouldn't forget - because I am their daughter. It was such a nice birthday party. We sang songs (including Christmas carols and a Scottish song - since Mac was born in Scotland), Mac reflected on his life, and we ate the ice cream. Gogo even licked the bowl - she said she hadn't had ice cream in 2 years. Mac said he couldn't even remember the last time he had ice cream. And then I prayed a prayer of blessing over Mac. Debra said it was the best birthday party she'd ever been to. I couldn't help thinking about the contrast to the wedding yesterday. Yesterday there were SO many people to celebrate and give money and wish the couple well and be there to support. Today, on his 69th birthday, Mac had 4 of us - and we were the only people in this world that celebrated with him. But he sure was happy! There really is something to the whole "love your neighbour" thing.