I'm an "emoter" and a "sharer." I don't have a problem sharing my feelings, because I wear my heart on my sleeve. So it's frustrating when I can't express what I want to. This morning we were asked to share about our Zimbabwean experience at THQ (where we work). I worked on my little 8 minute talk for hours. I knew I didn't have a lot of time, so I tried to cram in as much as I could. And I couldn't express it. I couldn't express what life was really like or the various stresses. I couldn't explain that ever-present joy mixed with sadness. I couldn't express how much I admire the people there, and I couldn't express what our relationships were like. I tried to create the mood of what the praise is like - the singing and dancing and exuberant joy. But I couldn't. I sing differently now. It's like I've lost my Zimbabwean voice. I was so committed to not forgetting; to remembering well. But I don't know how to honour my experience and all the courageous people I met. Life there was just so very, very different than life here.
In baby news... all is well. 3 weeks to go. Yesterday we had an ultrasound and learned that our little boy is already a great size and moving a lot. I can't wait to meet him.
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Your love for Zimbabwe and its people come through anyway! All the best for baby's arrival
After following your story for a long time I cant believe the baby is nearly due. I am so excited for you both and I have never even met you :)
Thank you for sharing your passion and heart for Zimbabwe, maybe you don't always have the words at the time when you feel you need them... but what I read on your blog, I can tell your love for the place and the people and I can sense your desire to see change and your frustration in not being there. You CAN make a difference from where you are right now, be an advocate for those who don't have a voice and bring awareness to the needs. Never be silent!
Praying for you, especially in these next 3 weeks. May God provide all you need in these days.
Debbie
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